Meditations
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A Roman Emperor's Private Diary
Imagine finding the private journal of the most powerful person on Earth—not their public speeches or official decrees, but the notes they wrote to themselves in moments of doubt, frustration, and searching. That's exactly what we have in the Meditations of Marcus Aurelius, Roman Emperor from 161 to 180 of the Common Era.
Marcus never meant for anyone to read these writings. He probably would have been mortified to learn that nearly two thousand years later, people from Chinese premiers to American presidents would be poring over his private reminders to himself about how to be a better person.
The original Greek title, "Ta eis heauton," translates roughly to "Things Unto Himself" or "To Himself"—which tells you everything about what these writings were. They weren't philosophy lectures. They weren't political treatises. They were the intimate self-talk of a man trying desperately to live up to his own ideals while running an empire, fighting wars, and watching friends die of plague.
Written in War Camps, Not Palaces
Here's something that makes the Meditations even more remarkable: Marcus wrote much of this work not in the comfort of Rome, but in military camps along the frozen frontiers of the empire.
The internal notes reveal that he composed the first book while campaigning against a Germanic tribe called the Quadi, near what is now Slovakia. The second book came together at Carnuntum, a legionary fortress on the Danube. Much of the rest was likely written at Sirmium, in modern-day Serbia, where he spent a decade planning and executing military campaigns.
Picture this: after a day of managing troop movements, negotiating with hostile tribes, and making life-or-death decisions, the emperor retires to his tent and writes reminders to himself about controlling his temper and accepting mortality. There's something almost unbearably human about it.
What Stoic Philosophy Actually Means
To understand the Meditations, you need to understand Stoicism—not the modern meaning of the word (keeping a stiff upper lip and suppressing emotions), but the actual ancient philosophy that Marcus practiced.
Stoicism was founded in Athens around 300 years before Christ by a merchant named Zeno who lost everything in a shipwreck. Rather than despair, Zeno began teaching a radical idea: we can't control what happens to us, but we can control how we respond. The universe operates according to a rational principle the Greeks called "logos"—a kind of divine reason that permeates everything.
For the Stoics, living well meant aligning yourself with this logos. It meant recognizing that most things people chase—wealth, fame, pleasure—are "indifferent." They're neither good nor bad in themselves. The only true good is virtue: wisdom, justice, courage, and self-control. Everything else is just stuff that happens.
This sounds abstract until you see Marcus wrestling with it in real time. He writes about being surrounded by flatterers and schemers at court, about dealing with physical pain, about watching people he loved die in the Antonine Plague that killed perhaps five million people during his reign. The Stoic framework wasn't just intellectual exercise for him. It was a survival strategy.
The Core Ideas
Several themes run through the twelve books of the Meditations like threads in a tapestry.
The first is perspective. Marcus constantly reminds himself to zoom out—way out. He writes about contemplating "everlasting time" and "the rapid change in the parts of each thing." When you're upset about an insult or anxious about a decision, consider that the void before your birth and the void after your death are "equally infinite." Your troubles are cosmically insignificant. This isn't meant to be depressing. For Marcus, it's liberating.
The second theme is that harm comes from within, not without. Other people can insult you, betray you, even kill you—but they cannot force you to become bitter, vengeful, or afraid. "The only way a man can be harmed by others," Marcus writes, "is to allow his reaction to overpower him." Your judgments about events cause your suffering, not the events themselves.
This leads to the third theme: radical responsibility. If your peace of mind depends entirely on your own judgments, then you have no excuse for unhappiness. You can't blame your circumstances, your enemies, or your luck. Marcus is remarkably hard on himself about this, constantly pushing back against his own tendencies toward irritation and self-pity.
The fourth theme is mortality—not as something to fear, but as the great clarifier. Death strips away pretense. It reminds you what matters. Marcus writes about emperors and philosophers who are now forgotten, about great cities reduced to ruins. He's not being morbid. He's using death as a tool to focus his attention on living well right now, in this moment, which is the only moment we ever really have.
The Style: Unpolished and Better For It
The Meditations reads nothing like other philosophical works from antiquity. Plato wrote elaborate dialogues. Aristotle wrote systematic treatises. Marcus wrote what might be called bullet points for the soul.
Some entries are single sentences. Others ramble on for paragraphs. There's repetition—Marcus returns to the same ideas again and again, as if he kept forgetting his own lessons (which, of course, we all do). The style is, in the words of one scholar, "simplified, straightforward"—perhaps reflecting the Stoic emphasis on cutting through to essentials.
This lack of polish is part of what makes the book so powerful. You're not reading a finished argument designed to persuade you. You're watching a man argue with himself, coach himself, sometimes almost berate himself. It's philosophy as self-therapy, and it feels surprisingly modern.
How the Book Survived
The journey of the Meditations from a Roman emperor's private notebook to one of the most influential books in Western civilization is itself a remarkable story of near-loss and unlikely preservation.
For centuries after Marcus died in 180, the book essentially vanished from the historical record. A historian named Herodian, writing about fifty years later, mentions that Marcus left behind writings—but whether he's referring to the Meditations specifically is unclear. There are scattered possible references in the third and fourth centuries, tantalizingly vague.
The first person we can definitively identify as having read the book is a Byzantine bishop named Arethas of Caesarea, who lived in the ninth and tenth centuries—some seven hundred years after Marcus's death. Arethas was a manuscript collector, and around 900 of the Common Era he sent a copy of the Meditations to another bishop with a letter explaining that he'd had an ancient, crumbling copy transcribed to preserve it for posterity.
That copy Arethas made is now lost. But it's almost certainly the ancestor of all surviving manuscripts. Think about that: every copy of the Meditations that exists today probably descends from a single volume that a Byzantine book collector happened to save from deterioration.
The book entered wider European consciousness after the fall of Constantinople in 1453, when Greek scholars fled west carrying manuscripts. The first printed edition appeared in Zurich in 1558 or 1559, edited by a scholar named Wilhelm Xylander who worked from a manuscript in Heidelberg. That manuscript has since vanished—so the early printed editions are now themselves crucial sources for the text.
The Corrupted Text
Here's something scholars have to grapple with: the text of the Meditations we have today is almost certainly not exactly what Marcus wrote. The surviving manuscripts are copies of copies of copies, each introducing errors, and they're in genuinely bad shape.
The main surviving manuscript, known as Codex Vaticanus 1950, dates from the fourteenth century and is, in scholarly parlance, "very corrupt." About forty-two lines have simply dropped out through accidental omissions over the centuries of copying. Passages are garbled. Words are missing or mangled.
This means every modern translation involves considerable interpretation and educated guesswork. Different translators make different choices about how to resolve ambiguous passages. When you read a particularly striking sentence in the Meditations, you're reading what scholars think Marcus probably meant, filtered through many layers of transmission and translation.
Yet the core ideas come through clearly enough that millions of readers across almost two millennia have found the book transformative. The signal, it seems, was strong enough to survive a lot of noise.
How Others Have Seen It
The Meditations has attracted an unusual range of admirers, cutting across religious and political lines in ways that few other ancient texts do.
Early Christian writers found much to admire in Marcus's moral seriousness, even though he had persecuted Christians during his reign. The Anglican priest Maxwell Staniforth, who produced one of the most popular English translations in 1964, wrote extensively about Stoicism's influence on Christian thought. The emphasis on self-examination, on distinguishing what's in our control from what isn't, on accepting divine providence—these ideas resonated with Christian spiritual traditions.
The scholar Gilbert Murray compared the Meditations to the Confessions of Saint Augustine and the Confessions of Jean-Jacques Rousseau—very different books, but all three are attempts at radical self-examination, stripping away pretense to get at something true.
In more recent times, the book has become almost a talisman for people in high-pressure positions. Wen Jiabao, who served as Premier of China from 2003 to 2013, claimed to have read the Meditations over a hundred times. Bill Clinton reportedly kept a copy close at hand. There's something about Marcus's combination of power and humility, action and reflection, that appeals to people who have to make consequential decisions under uncertainty.
The Philosophy Behind the Man
Marcus was a devoted Stoic, but his Stoicism had a particular character worth understanding. He was deeply influenced by Epictetus, a former slave who became one of the most important Stoic teachers. Epictetus's core insight—that we suffer not from events but from our judgments about events—runs through the Meditations like a drumbeat.
But Marcus was also an emperor, which gave his Stoicism a practical edge. He wasn't a recluse who could withdraw from the world. He had to make decisions that affected millions of lives. He had to deal with corrupt officials, rebellious generals, plague, war, and the constant threat of assassination.
This tension—between the Stoic ideal of detachment and the imperial necessity of engagement—makes the Meditations more interesting than a purely theoretical work could be. Marcus doesn't always resolve the tension. Sometimes you can feel him straining against it. But that strain is part of what makes the book feel honest.
Some modern philosophers, like Immanuel Kant, have found echoes of their own ideas in Marcus. The emphasis on duty, on acting according to rational principles regardless of consequences, does anticipate certain strands of later ethical thought. But Marcus wasn't building a system. He was trying to get through each day without becoming a tyrant or a coward.
What the Meditations Is Not
It's worth being clear about what this book doesn't offer.
The Meditations is not a political philosophy. Marcus was an absolute monarch who never questioned the institution of slavery or the basic structure of Roman imperial power. His ethics are intensely personal. He's concerned with how to be a good person, not with how to organize a just society.
It's also not a systematic philosophy. Marcus draws on Stoic ideas but doesn't defend or develop them rigorously. If you want to understand Stoicism as a philosophical system, you'd do better with Epictetus or the fragments of the early Stoics. The Meditations is applied philosophy—or maybe philosophy in action is a better term.
And it's not a guide to happiness in any simple sense. Marcus was, by many accounts, a melancholic person. The Meditations is shot through with a kind of austere sadness—an acceptance of loss and limitation that some readers find bracing and others find bleak. He's not promising you'll be happy. He's promising you can be virtuous, which for a Stoic was ultimately the same thing, but it doesn't always feel that way.
Why It Still Matters
Almost two thousand years after Marcus set down his stylus for the last time, why do people keep reading this book?
Part of it is the drama of the situation. Here's the most powerful man in the world, writing private notes about controlling his temper and accepting his mortality. The gap between his position and his concerns is arresting. It reminds you that human struggles don't scale with power. The emperor is wrestling with the same demons you are.
Part of it is the practical utility. Unlike many philosophical texts, the Meditations offers concrete practices: notice when you're making judgments, consider things from a cosmic perspective, remember that you'll die, focus on what's in your control. These aren't just ideas to think about. They're things you can actually do.
But the deepest appeal may be this: Marcus is honest about how hard it is. He doesn't present himself as a sage who has mastered these lessons. He's a student who keeps having to re-learn them, over and over. He gets frustrated with himself. He notices his own failings. He starts again.
That's reassuring. If a Roman emperor, with all the resources and education of his civilization, still had to remind himself daily not to be petty, not to fear death, not to let others' opinions control him—well, maybe it's okay that you do too.
Finding a Translation
Dozens of English translations exist, and choosing between them is partly a matter of taste.
For modern readers, the translations by Gregory Hays (2002) and Robin Waterfield (2021) are probably the most accessible. Hays in particular has been praised for making Marcus sound contemporary without distorting his meaning. His translation is direct and punchy—a good match for the terseness of the original.
For those who want something closer to the Greek, with more scholarly apparatus, the translations by A.S.L. Farquharson (1944) and the Loeb Classical Library edition by C.R. Haines (1916) remain valuable. Farquharson's extensive commentary illuminates many obscure passages.
The older translations—George Long's from 1862, Maxwell Staniforth's from 1964—have a more Victorian or formal flavor. Some readers prefer this; it makes Marcus sound ancient and dignified. Others find it creates unnecessary distance from ideas that are still urgently relevant.
Robin Hard's 2011 translation has the advantage of including selections from Marcus's correspondence with his tutor Fronto, which provides valuable context about who Marcus was before he became emperor.
A Book That Almost Wasn't
There's one final thing worth contemplating. The Meditations almost didn't survive. For seven hundred years after Marcus died, we have at best indirect evidence that anyone read it. It came within a hair's breadth of being lost forever—one too-crumbling manuscript, one fire, one careless librarian.
And yet here it is, available in dozens of languages, read by millions. An emperor's private notebook became one of the most influential books ever written. Marcus would probably have been embarrassed. He might have been horrified. But there's something very Stoic about the irony: he couldn't control what happened to his writings after his death, so he would have accepted it.
What matters, he might have said, is not that people read your journal. What matters is that you wrote it—that you did the work of self-examination, that you tried to be better, that you showed up each day to the task of becoming more fully human. The rest is beyond your control.
The rest is indifferent.